I didn't want to run...

I did not want to run.

It was cold and I had been spoiled by the mild temps this fall.

I procrastinated. 

I bargained.

But finally, I forced myself to lace up my shoes, strapped my Garmin 920xt to my wrist, and headed out to "git er done."

It was awful. By the end of mile 1, I was regretting my choice to leave my hat and gloves at home. By the end of mile 2, I was hating life and my feet and hands were completely numb. My muscles felt frozen as they seemed to protest every step. I fought to keep from shivering as I ran through the shade. As I turned into the park, I resolved to get this torture over as soon as possible and picked up the pace for my first set of planned sprints. I was happy to see the sun rising a little higher in the sky as I plugged forward. I was having trouble getting to the goal pace for the day, but I did my best and kept going. 

At mile 2.5, I was glad to notice the feeling had returned to my hands. 5.5 miles left.

At mile 5, my goal pace became easier to attain and Jack Johnson's Upside Down came on my iPod. I started contemplating what a great theme song it was for the past year... which lead to continuing to develop my upcoming class on using Neuro Emotional Technique as an aide for one's spiritual journey. 

At mile 5.5, Mumford and Sons "Awake My Soul" started drifting into my ears... I ran up over the hill and noticed the cloudless, blue sky and was overcome with gratitude... For the beauty of that moment, my year, my life, this run, this day, this breath... And I couldn't help but smile. 

At mile 6, I felt like I could keep running forever. I didn't want to stop. I got so caught in the moment, I lost myself for a time... And inadvertently added an extra mile. But I didn't care anymore. I was just happy to be out there. And it occurred to me where this run started that morning... And how quickly things can change. And once again, I was reminded how a little shift in attitude, in influences, in environment, the slightest recalibration... can make such a huge difference. And how the biggest limitations we face are all between our ears. And I realized...

This is why I run. This is why I Tri. And this is why I am an Ironman.

Ironman Maryland 2015 (My First!)

Pre Race:

So much stuff to pack!

This event was such an emotional roller coaster. First, it was cancelled due to Hurricane Joaquin, then postponed for two weeks... by the time I was finally leaving for Maryland, I had lost all my enthusiasm. So many friends were unable to return, volunteers were in short supply... I was so ready for it to be over with. Greg "Bacon" was driving down with his father and had agreed to give me a lift. We arrived in Cambridge around 10:30am. Greg dropped me off at check-in and went to set up his camp site. I proceeded to bump into Chad Nordby who was working security. We chatted for a bit and then I went to get in the check-in line, which was already at least 50 people deep at 11:30 (check-in opened at noon). Standing in line, I felt my excitement start to build. It was a beautiful morning, crisp and sunny with a slight breeze. By 12:30, I had my

wristband and was directed to the timing chip line... but when I saw how long the line was, I knew something had to be off. It turned out that the internet was down and they couldn't

Checked in!

give out the chips until it was fixed. There went my plan of hitting the 1pm athlete briefing! But while I was waiting, I made friends with Craig from San Diego who was in line in front of me. Turns out he came in 5th in his age group on race day! (Congrats, Craig!) It took about an hour for things to get up and running again. It was great bumping into friends throughout the day. All IMMD merch was 40% off due to the reschedule (collector's items!) so I stocked up on some gear. At the athlete briefing, they warned us about hypothermia and advised us to stay as warm as possible, especially before getting into the water. The warmer you are getting in, the longer it will take for the cold to catch up with you, I guess. I made a mental note to get an extra sweatshirt to toss for the start of the bike. After check-in was complete, I dropped my stuff off at the gorgeous

Sunset on Brannock Neck Road

house Michelle Kiser invited me in to and headed to Snapper's to meet up with the IMS crew.

Friday, I finally got the pleasure of seeing Michelle Kiser in person! As I was wondering how I would get to bike check-in, Maureen Kelpatrick texted. She and Bill offered to pick me up (hooray!!). Bill and I rode our bikes the 7 miles to Long Wharf Park while Maureen drove the pacer car and I got my first taste of Cambridge wind. All I could hope is that the wind would be gone the next day. As we rode down part of the run course, a cobblestone street, I lost a water bottle cage and got a flat. I was glad to get this out of the way before race day. Turns out I had

Bike fixed and checked in!

a couple screws loose (as if anyone needed confirmation of this... I was about to do an Ironman!!!). After Tricycle & Run hooked me up with the needed repairs and my bike was safely tucked into her slot (with a brief cameo by Howard and Diane Uniman) I changed into my wetsuit (and discovered Trislide thanks to fellow racer Avery from NYC! Thanks, Avery!) and headed to the water for a practice swim. The winds had picked up and the water was choppy. I was dreading this swim. Bill and I headed into the water where we bumped into Jaime and Tammy.  The swim was misery and the self-doubt started to build and take hold. (I wrestled with so much self-doubt leading up to this race. I think I need more training buddies. Too much solitary training gets me in my head.) The water was so cold it knocked the wind out of me and with every stroke, it slapped me in the face due to the chop. I started to lose it and concluded that in these conditions, knowing it would be colder the day of the race, I had stretched beyond what I was capable of.  My biggest concern is that the chop and the current would slow me down so much I would never make it out of the water before the cut-off. Thankfully, Bill was there to give me a reality check. With my expected swim time, I would still have a half-hour window to play with.  I also thought back to Jerseyman that Tobias convinced me to follow through with in the beginning of the season... the water was cooler, it was rainy, and I didn't even have a wetsuit back then and I was ok. Once I got over my

Part of  my Prayer List

panic, I relaxed in the water, got into my groove, and got a small practice swim in, but I was more

A little reminder for race day
(used to easily distinguish
my bag from the others)

than ready to get out, get warm, pick up my last remaining needed supplies, and get a warm meal in my belly! (Bill and Maureen marveled as I shoveled in my bunless hangover burger and cheddar bacon fries at Jimmie and Sook's... "Won't that bother your stomach for the race?" NOPE! lol)

After that, it was a matter of dropping off my run and bike bags, taking our CJTC photo, bumping into a few more friends, and heading home to pack my special needs bags, get my prayer requests written on my arm (thanks, Shannon!), and getting to bed. I was beat!

Race Morning:

On the way to the shuttles, I ate two hard-boiled eggs and a peach chobani as this breakfast served me well at Princeton. When I boarded the shuttle, I started chatting with the guy next to me. I thought this would be a good idea to ease my nerves. Turns out it wasn't. He was a first timer as well and was full or horror stories and anxiety. I put the conversation to bed as soon as I could and tried to focus on what I could control.

39 degrees and breezy, 33 with the windchill factor.

Due to the temps, I had opted for a swimsuit under my wetsuit (sleeveless), tri bra underneath, and a complete wardrobe change. At Thea's advice, I wore two swim caps. I also covered my face and arms with vaseline in an attempt to preserve some heat and protect my skin. While we waited, I wore a hat, gloves, and sweatshirt, plus handwarmers. I also left my socks and shoes on. They first announced that due to 30 mph wind gusts and a small

Deceptively calm sunrise at the swim start

watercraft advisory, the swim would be cut in half (1.2 miles) and moved to a 7:30am start.  Miraculously, as the sun rose and 7am came around, the winds settled down and the swim was lengthened to 3000 meters. At this point, I realized I had lost all enthusiasm for this race. I wasn't my normal cheerful self. The last thing I want to do is put myself in danger. My feet were already numb from the cold. I have Reynaud's and don't tolerate cold well in general. I started getting really nervous. I wanted to walk away. After all, I don't have anything to prove. This wasn't worth the risk anymore. If it weren't for my tri club members, Maureen with her offer of prayer, and Darren with his pep talk encouraging me to just get in line and go, I never would have started. As I shuffled into line and ate my Espresso Love Gu, I prayed for a sign that I was where I was supposed to be... a little sign from the Universe to reassure me I would be ok. That's when a fellow racer started chatting with me. I mentioned that I had dedicated each mile to someone, the first being my Godmother because it was her birthday that day. She nonchalantly mentioned that it was her Godmother's birthday too. Huh. Our conversation continued, I asked her where she was from... New Jersey? What are the odds of all this synchrony? I decided to embrace that and got into the water.

The Swim:

It was so. damn. cold. A word of thanks for my fellow triathletes as I am sure the first thing you all did was pee the moment you got in the water. It made for a lovely hot tub at the first turn buoy and really worked wonders not only to warm me up, but lighten my mood and make me chuckle... with my mouth tightly closed. Luckily, my feet were already numb from the air temp when I got in the water. Once I got over the initial shock, I was on my way.

The Choptank River earned its name that day and I couldn't help but wonder if all the salt water I swallowed (and got my sinuses flushed by) would change my salt/hydration strategy for the day. There were a lot of people swimming over me and diagonally in front of me despite staying far off the buoy line. My goggles were foggy the whole time but I didn't bother to stop to fix them. I just wanted to finish that damn swim. Siting was difficult as we were swimming directly into the rising sun. The water was
incredibly choppy so I just followed the swim caps ahead. I did opt to use earplugs for the first time (breaking the cardinal rule of "nothing new on race day") because I had heard the cold water in the ear canal could mess with my equilibrium and I've noticed minor issues with this before in open water.  There was a bit of confusion at the start of the second loop... were we supposed to do a second loop? I wasn't sure. But I

confirmed with someone on a SUP and started on my second lap. This is also the first race where I not only had multiple people T-boning me on the swim with their heads, but I also got kicked in the sternum. It wasn't enough to hurt, but I was pretty shocked that could even happen. I blame the chop. As I left the water I heard the announcer. "There are 130 swimmers still in the water."

See this?
This is what a freezing cold triathlete looks
like exiting the water.

T1: SO. DAMN. COLD. Everything was a blur as Kristin and her companion expertly stripped off my wetsuit and helped me up. I ran into the changing tent. The changing tent was crowded and chaotic, I knew they were going to have heaters but it was still cold and drafty... no. WINDY. in the tent. And as far as the heaters went, there only appeared to be one. It was difficult to find an empty chair so I sat on the ground. I opened my handwarmers and tossed them in my shoes (forgot to do this in the am). It was very difficult to get dressed damp. I needed some help from the volunteers. I threw on tri shorts, bike capris, a bike jersey, sleeves, my Bontrager windbreaker (love this thing!), swiftwick socks, surgical gloves under my bike gloves, and I threw a $5 walmart sweatshirt on top for some added warmth. On the way out of the tent, I put my handwarmers in my pants on my quads. (Thanks for the idea, Carrie!) I also put some vaseline on my face to protect from the wind. I think I broke a record for longest transition ever: 20:15


The Bike:
As usual post swim, I had some catching up to do. I started passing people. Relentlessly. One after another. My prayers

Bike Mount

helped me through and by the time I got to mile 15 of the bike, I was crying tears of gratitude for starting, for being physically able to do this race, and for the amazing support I found myself surrounded by. The wind was BRU. TAL. It seemed that when the headwind would let up, the crosswind gusts would take over. I don't know what the max wind speed was (perhaps 35 mph?), but it just seemed to get worse as the day progressed. The drafting was out of control and seemed impossible to avoid at points. We also were not supposed to cross the double yellow line but with people riding two across without passing, and refusing to budge when I called out "on your left" that was also impossible to avoid. And with the unexpected wind gusts, I wanted to give adequate space to pass.

The most fitting meme for the bike course, and perhaps the race as a whole.

But I kept pushing.

You can see the fluff on the top of the grass here.
...And the sheen from the Vaseline.

My concentrated Infinit worked well to keep my nutrition and hydration timed well but in the wind I didn't want to risk refilling my aero bottle on the bike so I stopped at every aid station instead. I can't remember when I ditched my sweatshirt. I kept my focus on my short term goal: to get to my bacon and salted boiled potatoes at the halfway point and aside from my prayers, that was all I focused on. There was a lot of fluff blowing through the air from the grass (what my mom has always called Squirrel Tails due to their resemblance) and it stuck to the Vaseline on my face. Also, every time I leaned forward to take a sip of Infinit, water would pour out of my nose. Not sure if this was from the swim, the cold, or the pollen, but I've never had so much liquid rushing out of my sinuses on a ride before.

I came in to Bike Special needs a half hour ahead of schedule. Unfortunately, the porto potty line was RIDICULOUS. There was no TP. I tried to ask for some and a fellow racer yelled at me that I didn't need it. I couldn't help but wonder what her rush was about... it's not like she was vying for a Kona slot... I was glad I had surgical gloves with me for reapplying my chamois butter, but I will put some TP in Special needs for next time.

Omnomnomnom.
(aka Bike Special Needs)

About 20 minutes later, I was on my way again. Despite training with my mid ride snack, it did not sit well. As I fought blowing chunks all over the course, I wondered if it had somehow gone bad. The nausea was awful. I think the fat was just too much to handle with my level of exertion. I slowed down a bit to let my body digest. The wind was getting worse. I just prayed to finish this ride safely. The sun went behind a cloud and it got cold. I stopped at the porto potty again two more times. At mile 90, the girl in front of me in line suggested a massage chain for our aching shoulders. I was 100% down with that idea! Looking back, I probably could have cut 45 minutes to an hour from my time without the bathroom lines. My feet were numb the whole ride. The feeling only came back at bike special needs when I was off my saddle. I kept waiting to hit "the wall" at mile 80 (I've heard so many people mention this!) but it never came. By the time I hit mile 80, all I could think was that I was almost done. All I had to do was keep pedaling and soon, my feet would be safely back on the ground. And I could get my dry, warm, fleece pullover. It was great seeing my cheering crew around mile 100 and Michelle called out that she would call my mom and let her know I was ok. Apparently the tracking software went down (doesn't it always?? lol). And shortly after that, knowing that we only had 8 miles to go, the wind decided to open up a can of whoop ass. I felt like I was riding with a flat tire through sand. But I kept pushing. And kept passing. I was almost there. Total bike time: 6:59:55

T2: LORD HAVE MERCY I HAVE REACHED THE PROMISED LAND!!! I was so happy to be off that damn bike. I barely noticed the half mile jog through transition (for the second time that day... limited volunteers meant no bike handlers at IMMD 2015). I was convinced the wind would be so much more tolerable on the run. (I was wrong. More on that later.) One more trip to the porto potty (glad to see my hydration was on point). I stripped off my bike capris (and left on my tri shorts underneath) and changed out of my sweaty bike jersey. I also ditched the windbreaker. It was great to get dry clothes on again. I opened some handwarmers and carried my gloves for now. Ditched my sunnies and switched to my lucky Devils hat. Total time: a luxurious, meandering 19:41

The Run: (I wrote this once already but it got deleted. Lame. Here we go again.)
I thought the wind would be better once I was off the bike. I was wrong. The gusts knocked the wind out of me and threatened repeatedly to steal my hat. (HANDS OFF, MOTHER NATURE! I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF YOU TODAY!)  It was the kind of wind that jumps out of nowhere and chases your own breath down your throat. I offered up my extra bottle of eye drops to a fellow racer in the changing tent who was struggling with her contacts. I gave some Immodium to a guy I met at the start of the run whose bowels wanted to run more than his legs.

And overall, I felt pretty good.

Once I got moving, I wasn't cold. And as long as I stayed moving, I seemed to be ok. I tried to chat with people along the way... one was a guy with a medical needs bag who I jokingly accused of toting a power drill with him on the course (he good-naturedly shot back that he didn't know if anyone might need some home improvements that day and wanted to be prepared). I also snagged a bear hug from a couple of kids dressed in bear onesies (SO WARM AND SNUGGLY!).

I stopped by Run Special Needs at my ?third? pass because the sun was going down and I didn't want to get cold. I think this was around mile 10. My left hip flexor started to seize when I paused at RSN and I realized that stopping was not a good idea. I also realized that Run Special Needs was placed in, by far, the windiest, coldest location on the entire course... I'm pretty sure I spotted Dorothy's house flying by... and perhaps a dairy cow... I grabbed my fleece and headlamp and got moving after a brief struggle trying to convince the volunteer to use my extra handwarmers.

I was really happy to have the headlamp. There were spots on the course where I couldn't even see my own feet and the flood lights made it worse, bleaching out my rods and cones running into them. The headlamp really helped. I took advantage of the hot and lukewarm chicken broth and by the last 7 miles, I had a newfound enthusiasm for Watermelon Gu Chews. When the cramping returned in my hip flexor and started in my low back, my new running friend, Kelly, suggested I may need more salt, so I took some base salts and gatorade endurance. I think she was onto something because it seemed to help. And if it was just placebo? Well Thank you, Brain! Kelly and I found each other around mile 12 and she was a Godsend. We were about the same pace and she encouraged me to move when my legs protested. I definitely owe my run time partially to her. And I think Ironman needs to officially subtract 30 seconds off her run time, as she let me go first and promised to trip anyone who tried to steal my moment in the shoot or screw up my Finisher's photo. Favorite signs spotted were "Chafing the Dream" and "This puts the FU in fun!" Run Time: 6:07:30

Total time: 15:01:44

Post Race:
I felt great coming down the shoot, but the moment I stopped, the cold and my worked muscles caught up to me. I felt like I could barely move. I was so grateful that Chad was there and offered to immediately drive me home. All I wanted was a hot shower after being so cold for so many hours.

When we got to the house, my muscles just didn't want to work anymore and I needed a little help getting out of the car. The shivering began and didn't stop until I was inside. I felt like my body temp was all over the map. When I finally got out of that glorious shower (NO CHAFING! IT'S an ironman MIRACLE!!), I was fine for about a half hour... and then I couldn't stop shivering. I ended up wrapping myself in the mylar blanket under the covers and in about 30 minutes, I was warm and sleeping. I thought I'd be hungry when I was done, but I had no appetite either. I had two reese's cups as a post race treat with some water and gatorade and went to sleep. The next morning, I was afraid to move, but as soon as I got moving, the stiffness started to recede. I felt mildly hung over and walked like a toy soldier, but I was surprised how mild the after affects were! I also only slept 4 hours and woke up at 5am like someone just flipped my power button on. My appetite and my fatigue were unpredictable all day Sunday but each day they got better and better. I took an ice bath Sunday afternoon which worked wonders, took my swim class (with hot tub time) Monday night, got a massage, adjustment, and hot bath Tuesday, and felt back to normal by Wednesday with the exception of getting winded easily. Overall, a much better recovery than I expected! Dare I say, with the proper training, this was actually somewhat... easy? *ducks for cover*

The medal

(Almost) A million thanks: (some of these seem to have disappeared so I'm sorry if I left anyone out. :( )

I'm so overwhelmed with gratitude:

To my coach Thea, for training me well and handling my self-doubt with such a cool hand.

My dad made this sign! #adorbs

To the cheerleaders: my parents and brothers and their families, the bears, Banana Girl, the Base Salts crab, Doug and Becky, CJTC, all those along the course, and, especially, those who tracked, cheered, and followed from home. When I turned my phone on at the end of the day, I was blown away with how many of you sent messages congratulating me. I had no idea so many of you were with me during that race but it warmed my heart and made my eyes get all leaky. ;) You have no idea how much that meant to me.

A warm welcome home

To the one who put the idea in my head: Bill Markunas, you are one of the most inspiring, motivational people I know. Without you and your gentle push, this distance might have never been brought into the realm of something I might be capable of.

To my Team of Body and Mind mechanics that keep me mobile and sane: Patrick Lerouge, Gwen Stanton, Dr. Alan Foster, Dr. Dennis Mariano, Dr. Nancy Erb, Dr. Lou Gregory, and Dr. Laura Brayton.

To Nori, for the support, a place to stay during training weekends, and for cheering. Ironbaby in the house!!

To my friend I met on the marathon portion: Kelly, I can't thank you enough for keeping me going. I'm so glad we found each other out there!

To my training buddies! Especially Greg, Howard, Gappy, Carrie, Joe, Gilberth, and the Rays of Sunshine.

To Craig at High Gear for tolerating my neurotic pre-race panicked needs and the one-on-one tire-changing lessons.

To my assistant, Valerie: Thank you for working so hard, taking such good care of our patients, and tolerating my erratic training schedule and taper crazies, especially once the dreaded reschedule hit!

To Darren for the peptalk that saved the day.

To Mike Reilly: Your promise of a post-race phone call kept me moving at so many moments!

To the Volunteers: Kristin who gets the award for best wetsuit stripper ever, the mystery girl who had to touch my bare ass in the changing tent, and especially Michelle who put my mom at ease when the tracking software went haywire, cheered at seemingly every aid station, invited me into a beautiful house,

To Shannon: Thanks for being such a selfless roomie, for taking time to write on my arm (lol), and for not losing it with the sound of my crinkling mylar blankie.

To Maureen & Bill: I'm so grateful God brought us together. Thank you for helping in so many ways. As I prayed for Patrick during the bike, I thought about his attitude towards life and was overcome with gratitude with how God takes the worst situations and makes them beautiful.

To my friends for being so understanding of my absence this past summer and so tolerant of all my tri-talk.

Extra special thanks to my transportation crew: Greg, Gappy, Maureen, Bill, Chad, Kristin, and Keith!!

To God for keeping my friends and I safe during this intense and brutal day and for giving us the ability to compete and complete such an event.

And just in case you want to see a graph of the wind speeds that day...

NJ State Triathlon: Sprint and Olympic Double Down

The plan was to do the Sprint Saturday and the Olympic Sunday.

You know what they say... We make plans and God laughs.

In this case in particular, it was the weather gods.

I showed up Saturday morning so excited to kick a$$. I arrived at 5:45, set up my stuff, posed for the team pic, and waited for my wave to begin (over an hour after the first wave went out). It was hard to take a sprint seriously at this point... Not to knock anyone for doing a sprint. It's definitely an accomplishment, but since I have a number of longer races under my belt, a sprint is so SHORT in the grand scheme of things... much less high maintenance than races that require a MEAL to be packed. lol As long I have what I need to swim/bike/run, I can handle anything else. But I digress.

My swim was great. I was passing people! I finished in 12:52. My bike transition was superb. Fastest transition ever.  I grabbed my bike, started heading to the course, and as there were ten of us waiting to get going, I asked what the hold up was. All the volunteer said was, "that," and pointed behind me.

"that"

"oh."

My heart sunk as they closed the course and canceled the race.  Oh well. At least I still had the olympic the next day.

After the pouring settled down, I made my way back home.

The next morning, I returned to do it all again, times two.

Everything went smoothly in setup. I enjoyed chatting with Michele Herman while I waited for my swim wave to start (over an hour!). I was not happy about starting the course so late on such a hot day, but what are you gonna do.  

The swim was awful. I was clobbered repeatedly. Washing machine after washing machine after washing machine. People grabbing me, swimming over me, swimming into me. It was relentless. After the last turn buoy it finally opened up and I got into a rhythm. Final swim time sans wetsuit 39:58 

Transition to the bike was awful. If my race experience were turned into a movie, it would be called Lost in Transition. I spent minutes wandering around, confused. I couldn't find my bike! Then I realized I went to find it where it would have been the day before. At this race, I was in a completely different section. The run to bike mount was also a disappointment... at least a quarter of a mile run on soggy grass. Not desirable when in bike shoes. The bike itself was ok. Nothing crazy impressive. The course was shortened to 19.5 miles due to a drunk driver knocking out a telephone pole on the course. Bummer since it made it tough to compare to previous times. But it did make for an artificial PR! Also, looping through the college destroyed my speed. I was happy not to have to make two loops of the course anymore though. One less thing to think about. I was sad to see that on such a flat course, I was not as fast as I was at Eagleman. I did I great job hydrating. Final bike time 1:07:36

The run was ok. It was warm, but the heat didn't seem to have much of an effect on me. I actually got chills a few times as if someone turned on the air conditioner and I couldn't help but notice a slight breeze come by here and there. I enjoyed the icy washcloths on my neck and for the last mile, I found a new friend to run with. We were giving each other pep talks. I didn't let him quit and at the end, when I was hurting and spent, he didn't let me quit either. I sprinted the finish and passed him, then went directly into the cold shower. Final run time 1:08:07

Final race time 3:04:30 55/81 Next year, I hope to break 3 hours at this race.

Eagleman 70.3

the "real world triathlete" house

What a weekend!  I went from having nowhere to stay to being part of the inaugural season of The Real World: Triathlete -Choptank Edition. (And for anyone reading this with the means, it really would make a great TV show.) There's nothing better than showing up for a race and staying with a bunch of chill people who are all on the same schedule with the same goal.

The Accommodations:

A bed, a bathroom, a kitchen, a great roommate, and fun, friendly housemates with this playground:

The Pool

The Choptank

Pool table, Foosball, ping pong 

I mean, seriously. Does it get better than that?

Arrival:

It took about 4.5 hours with rush hour traffic but I left with my errands done, the freezer stocked with ice (for an ice bath as soon as I got home), and my apartment clean. Knowing that I had nothing to do when I got home took a lot off my mind. I arrived at the house around 8:30pm and was starving. Unpacked and heading to get dinner. Found it a little more challenging in Cambridge to find gluten-

I was so excited when I spotted this guy about
an hour and a half from Cambridge! I love that
his car and bike are color-coordinated. ;)

free restaurant options than in New Orleans... was a little surprised by that. Went for Shrimp and Grits with the shrimp sauteed instead of fried, and a grilled ceasar salad minus the croutons at High Spot... Really tasty! Felt a little awkward ordering a meal sized salad AFTER finishing my entree but omgtriathletehunger!! #thestruggleisreal Hung out and watched the soccer game for a bit with some other guys in town for the race, then headed to the only open grocery store in the area (it was already 10pm), Walmart, to pick up a gallon of water, fresh produce, and breakfast supplies. I was surprised to find that Cambridge was a little shady... when my credit card was declined due to a fraud alert based on my travel, the cashier was shocked that I returned with a working card. "90% of the time they don't come back!" Also got run over by a guy stocking shelves. There's a first for everything! At least I didn't get seriously hurt. Next time, I'll just pack a cooler with groceries before I leave. It was hard to find decent supplies.

The Day Before:

I awoke at 5:55am. I was hoping for a little more than 4

hours of sleep, but the temperature control left something to be desired and my hip flexors were cranky. If I stay in this house again, I'm bringing my own sheets/blankets. There was only a comforter to sleep under so I was constantly

Baby's First night away from home alone!

wrestling with being too hot/too cold. It all worked out though... Got a nice 25 mile bike in on the run course with Ed, Doug,
Jeremy, and Cindi and got to check out transition. After that, Cindi and I headed to Athlete Check-in. I didn't realize until that day that the expo and check-in were at different locations. Probably should have read the Athlete Guide after all.

After Cindi took care of some bike maintenance issues and we were all checked in, we grabbed a late lunch at Cranium's at the Beach and ended up with this pile of goodness...

Carb and bacon loading??

Did I mention it was really hard to find good gluten-free options in Cambridge? After that heap of tots, I wasn't hungry, so I saved my salmon and roasted brussels sprouts for dinner.

One more trip to the grocery store (I forgot my coconut butter packets!!!) and we headed back to the house to chill for the rest of the evening. Lounged by the pool (finally met the elusive Tobias Fehlhaber!), packed for the race, and played a brief game of Apples to Apples.  I foam-rolled before bed. Tried to sleep by 9:30. Eventually fell asleep around midnight, I think. I was too excited!

The Morning of:

I can't believe I woke up as alert as I was! 4am has never been easier with so many others on the

Thass alotta bikes

same schedule. I ate 3 hard-boiled eggs and a banana and headed to transition. Forgot my pre-race tunes back in Jersey.

I set up transition and headed down to the water with Cindi for a practice swim and briefly said hi to Gappy, then went to wait at the swim start. Heads up: the cannon blast at the start of the pro waves is LOUD. Especially when standing right next to it. Ate my espresso love Gu 15 minutes before the swim start. Maintained my calm.

The Swim:

Apparently we were getting into the water as the tide was going out. Everyone was complaining about the swim. I didn't notice a problem aside from the strong fish odor at the turnaround. You could feel the current standing at the start, but the water was calm and clear of jellies (YAY!). In a tidal river, I'd say, as someone who has never experienced this course, conditions were ideal with the exception that it was not wetsuit legal as the water temp was 78 degrees (F) at the start. 

I stayed to the back of the pack but this was actually to my detriment... it turns out I was actually faster than some of the others in my wave and a wall of them

The most anticlimactic swim finish ever.
(photo courtesy of Zachary Rose)

were in my way for a while. I finally circled around them and got into my groove. I still find it incredibly irritating when people try to mow me down while swimming. Once you touch me once, buddy, you know I'm there. Go. Around. And if you think I'm swimming erratically to the right and left, take a second look at the people I'm trying to get around in front of me. Weak swimmers, please stay to the side and back of your wave. It makes it much easier for the faster folks to get around. Once I got through the pack of guppies, the swim was smooth sailing. I stayed long as much as possible and swam until my fingers dragged the bottom. There were about 200 yds of that. I couldn't decide whether to walk and tire my legs or not. Eventually with about 50 yds to go, I went with high knee walking. It was the most anti-climactic swim finish ever with all these people plodding slowly through knee-deep water. "I'm al. most. there. I'm getting there. I can see you..." I think you get the point. Overall, though, I accomplished my swim goals: I passed people, made the cut-off, and none of lifeguards had to ask if I was ok (that last one was a first!). Swim time: 56:56, 2:56/100m Div Rank: 75

T1: I FORGOT I WANTED TO TAPE MY BIKE TOOLS TO MY FRAME!! So I took a few minutes to do it in T1. I only took a patch kit, two cartridges, drive head, and tire levers, hoping for the best on this sunny, flat course. Thanks, Ed, for the electrical tape! Couldn't have done it without that! Next time, I need to remember a cycling jersey. Even if it's hot, the pockets are so useful. Ate a beet ginger squeeze pack, sprayed on more sunscreen. Pretty sure I ate something else (probably a Gu) but race amnesia has kicked in already. Forgot a towel to wipe down with (especially my feet... grass and sand clung for dear life). 7:02

The Bike:

I started my endurolytes and dessicated adrenal on the bike. Two of each every hour. It was great to hear Douglas Eichhorn shout my name on the bike out! I look forward to meeting him in Lake Placid! 

For the first 30 miles of the bike, I was in cycling heaven. I kept shouting at those around me, "IS THIS REAL LIFE??" "AM I DEAD???" Most were unreceptive.  Maybe I AM dead. Or maybe they were. Beautiful marshes, farmlands, mostly fresh pavement, minimal cars, mostly flat... It was a cycling dream come true. Temps were probably in the 70s when I came out of the water and there wasn't a cloud in the sky. (I love my new Smith Optic Sunglasses! So light on my face, no fogging, no glare. Definitely a good investment.) I was passing people like crazy and feeling great. I saw Bill Higgins around mile 5 or 10. And if anyone was wondering what I was singing as I rode by, this song was stuck in my head for the ENTIRE BIKE. I'm not complaining. It's catchy and helped my cadence. ;) 

Around mile 30 is when the horsefly from hell decided to hitch a ride on my back. (WHAT KIND OF HORSE FLY TRAVELS AT 18MPH???) After five vicious, hungry bites (and the marks to prove it) he moved on to munch on someone else. This was probably when my right hip flexor decided to have a temper tantrum (the burning! oh, god, the burning). I babied it as much as I could. I made it through the aid stations grabbing water at every one, determined to stay hydrated. I had two sport bottles on the rear of my bike, one with berry UCAN, one with Endura. My Aero bottle was filled with water. As I finished it, I refilled it with the rear bottles. Everything was great until I switched to the UCAN. Cramping upper GI within 10 minutes of the first swallow. I thought maybe it was a fluke and tried a couple more times. Every sip made it exponentially worse. So I decided to sacrifice my fluids and do my best to load up as I rode by the aid stations. (I guess I'll stick to Lemonade flavor) For the rest of the ride, my upper GI system protested. I had Gus and Honey Almond butter packets on my bike which worked great. I had also tucked perpetuem solids in my sports bra (orange flavor) and had two on my ride. Ate at least two Gus. Did not want to get hungry because I knew if I did, I would bonk on the run. I felt like I did a much better job than Princeton at keeping up on my hydration and nutrition on the bike. Side note: my aero bottle started to lean forward, as I rode, making it difficult to get to the fluid when it was getting to the last third of the bottle. Need to check on solutions for this. I was concerned it would fall off completely.

I watched the first two ambulances cruise by with sirens wailing around mile 31, shortly after almost getting hit by a car turning onto the course, and then having said car cruise in front of me, blocking the road going 10 mph. Finally, she pulled over and let us pass. There was another ambulance a few miles later, and yet another a few miles after that. I sincerely hope everyone was ok. Sadly, there was no saving my triathlon spirit animal, the turtle... he was crushed on the course about halfway through. Perhaps that implies that I have leveled up. Perhaps my new spirit animal is the Horsefly... a pesky little bugger that refuses to give up.

At mile 40, not only did my saddle become intolerable (the burning. oh god, the burning), but I watched a woman flip her bike into a cornfield. She was ok... I think she just got distracted for a moment. She got up and kept riding. The pavement got rough around mile 50 or so, and I used any opportunity to stand on my bike, but with such a flat course, those opportunities really didn't come. I was so happy to see transition and be able to give my crotch a rest!! And I just realized I never peed for over three hours...

3:12:52, 1st split 18.18/h, 2nd 16.65/h, total 17.42mph, Div Rank: 61

T2: Right hip flexor was threatening to buckle under my weight. I was as gentle with it as I could be, knowing that if I kept my running form solid, it would be ok. Getting up and down in transition was rough. Sprayed more sunblock and chugged water on the way out of T2. 4:07

The Run:

By the time I hit the run, it was over 90 degrees with 99% humidity. By the time I finished, the heat index would be over 100. I could see them shuffling along as I was returning on my bike, "The Zombie Apocalypse" as a fellow competitor described it. But now I had joined the shuffling masses. It was one of the most unenthusiastic group of competitors I have ever encountered. I tried to lighten the mood as we passed the cremation center. "Hey, everyone! I guarantee it's hotter in there!" And some grumpypuss mumbled back, "But at least they're dead." If you'd rather be dead than running a race, I pity you, but stay out of my way because you are NOT going to rain on my slow-moving, stinky, sweaty parade! I stopped and chatted with people along the way when I needed a break.  It was great to find some other people who were happy to be out there. Like the guy who blew his back out a couple weeks ago and decided to do the race anyway and walk the run because he didn't want to miss out. And the 85 year old, Bob, who wouldn't accept it when I told him what a celebrity he was and how much he inspired us all. And Steve from Chicago, who I chased telephone poles with for the last five miles or so. I shared my endurolytes with a guy from the Phillipines who was having a lot of cramping and trouble with the heat. I was glad when I passed him later and he said he was feeling better. There were so many more, I can't remember their names. They agreed that we were racing with a rather surly crew and were relieved to find someone light-hearted to talk to. It was awesome to hear Jeremy call my name and tell me not to give up at mile 3. And at some point, Tobias said hi. I saw Gappy and Cindi, too. And as I ran, I found myself overcome by gratitude for this new tribe I have become a part of. I feel like I have an extended family in the triathlete community, and the more races I do, the more family I discover. 

I upped my endurolytes to two every half hour or so and chugged water and stuck ice down my shirt at every rest stop. I have never chugged so much during a race. And I never felt that I overdid it. The heat was intense, and the sun was relentless. I started drinking coke around mile 6 and it was like nectar of the GODS. It also made me belch like a truck driver which helped with the upper GI distress from the UCAN. By the last half of the run, my tummy was back to normal, and random strangers were applauding my burps. #talent

At mile 9 or 10, a naked 4 year old boy gave me a high five. I felt awkward about it, but are you going to be the one to refuse a 4 year old when they try to high five you?

Folks had sprinklers running for us to go through and I couldn't help but wonder if that was race legal. What happened to not accepting assistance? But by that point, I didn't care enough to think about it too much. My feet were soggy for most of the run. I have the blisters to prove it. 

At the last mile, I rallied those around me. "OK, GUYS. WE HAVE ONE MILE LEFT! WE CAN

You can see the sun blazing on my freshly earned medal

RUN THIS! WE'VE COME THIS FAR... WE CAN DO ANYTHING FOR ANOTHER TEN MINUTES. TWELVE MINUTES. WELL. you know what I mean. WHO's WITH ME?!" So about five or six of us took off for the finish line together. A woman I didn't recognize came up to me afterwards and thanked me. "You're a good motivator," she said. It gave me the warm fuzzies but I tried to explain that I did it because I needed the motivation just as badly. She didn't seem to care.

2:52:39, 1st split 12:43/mi, 2nd 13:38/mi, total 13:10/mi Div Rank: 59

Post Race Wrap-up:

I got to my phone and found my daily Bible verse:

I laughed at how fitting it was, as I felt like I just ran through Death Valley and survived with a smile.

It blows me away that God chose one of the seemingly most solitary sports to show me that we are never truly alone. We are, in fact, supported everywhere we go if we only open our eyes, hearts, and minds to see it.

Total:

The Double Rainbow I spotted after dinner after the race

Div Rank: 59

Gen Rank: 411

Overall Rank: 1539

Time: 7:13:36

Later that evening:
I stopped back at Cranium's to grab a burger to go and ended up chatting with the bartender who was inspired to do her very first triathlon! I look forward to hearing about her first race! A little while later, the Real World crew and I headed to Ocean Odyssey for some seafood. Raw oysters for me is becoming a post-race tradition. After dinner, as if adding beautiful punctuation to a perfect weekend, the skies opened up, the rain poured down, and I was greeted by a gorgeous double rainbow arching over my head and visible from horizon to horizon. I also spotted a herd of deer grazing on my way back to the house with a very unique member. (photo below)

The Days After:

Ice bath was great Monday morning. Ice pick through the brain hit with nausea at about 2pm Monday. A gallon of water, Endura, Eggdrop soup, pork fried rice, and 11 hours of sleep took care of it. Massage Tuesday morning was perfectly timed. On to Ironman Maryland!

The mostly white deer I snapped a pic of as it was crossing in front of my car post-rainbow.
Seriously... is this real life?

Jerseyman Triathlon

Race Date: 5/16/15 (I'm a little late getting this up but better late than never!)

The night before:
I will start with saying I was not motivated for this race. I wasn't even sure I was going to do this race. I did not feel prepared for the frigid swim (no wetsuit yet coupled with bad form), the hilly course (cold winter/spring temps/bike buddy abandonment kept me from my long rides), and the weather forecast was grim. I had tons of excuses. But thanks to Tobias Felhaber and my fellow Pathetic Triathletes, I caved under the peer pressure and showed up 40 minutes before the race started to sign up with my free entry that I earned from volunteering at last year's race. Feeling my resistance, I put my bike on my rack before I even went to bed. Dinner was popcorn. Not my best meal choice. But since barely any effort or enthusiasm accompanied this race, I wasn't concerned.

The morning of:
I had a strawberry banana smoothie with a scoop of vanilla dream protein, GI response, 2 scoops or SP complete, and mixed greens.  It was cold. Temps in the high 40's. Overcast. Yuck. But I committed, so let's git 'er done. I signed up, got my bib and shirt and set up transition on the overflow rack. This race claims to be a sprint. That is a lie.

The Swim:

0.6 miles

I warmed up until the hyperventilating went away. Thankfully, the water wasn't as cold as I expected... a balmy 65. I think I was one of three people without a wetsuit. As we were freezing our butts off waiting for our wave (the last wave) to head out, it started to rain and my thoughts drifted to my gear in transition getting soaked. I wished I had covered it in plastic. Note to self for next time.  Luckily the rain stopped soon with intermittent sprinkles throughout the morning. While waiting on the beach, I started chatting with a relatively new triathlete named Chrystal. She was just as unprepared for the swim as I was, so at least I had some company at the back of the pack. And our chitchat helped to pass the time. (omg so much tri-candy to gaze at too!) I let the other swimmers go ahead of Chrystal and I and passed a total of three people on the swim: the one freaking out clinging to a buoy, the one swimming off course, and the one zig-zagging all over the place on his back like a fish with one fin. It was like the island of misfit toys and I fit in perfectly. lol Coming out of the water, I had left flipflops on the beach thinking it would protect my feet from stones on the way to transition... it turned out all they did was trap sand on the soles of my feet and between my toes. Bad idea.

2:30 pace, 26:20

T1:
I was in no rush. Dizzy from the swim. Forgot to drink. Changed shoes, threw long sleeves on (which I was so happy to have... It was so cold! My hands and feet were numb from the swim.), put on race belt with bib in back (good idea!) and hopped on my bike. On of the last out of transition. 4:48

The Bike:

24 miles

Hilly! But very pretty course. Lots of gorgeous horses running along with me and grazing while I rode. I almost ran over my triathlon spirit animal, the turtle, at mile 7.5. The 1st place elite was on his way back at that point and I wondered if he understood me when I screamed, "TURTLE!" The little guy was right between us and we were both going pretty fast. I think he was trying to give me a high five as his right arm was outstretched. I was happy I didn't see a smushed version of him on my way back. The roads were wet so I was super careful. Definitely no PR on the bike that day. But I was excited to see that I was racing down some of the hills and my fear continues to subside (though it's definitely still there at times...). I did not drink enough. This continues to be an issue. I get so consumed with peddling as fast as I can that I forget to drink. It occurred to me while I was riding that last year I couldn't imagine ever handling the hills on this course with my post-crash hill anxiety and here I was doing it and feeling pretty good. I call that a win for the day. Though I did leave the Shiv at home since I was nervous about bringing it to a race just yet. Felt pretty good coming off the bike and even managed to pass some people.

Avg spd 14.4mph, 1:39:46

T2:
Grabbed a bag of stingers and some water. Changed shoes. Turned bib forward. Quickly crammed a few stingers in my face and washed them down and got on to my run. Need to get my quick laces installed. Probably due for new running shoes too. 1:45 (woot!)

The Run:

4 miles

This is where I really shined. Best pace I think I have ever kept in a tri. I stayed strong the whole course with a steady even pace and felt good. Crossed Jaime Balint's path on the way out which was exciting! We finally got to meet in a hi/bye fashion. The run was a pretty flat out and back with the water stations around mile 1. I finished my stingers and enjoyed my run, passing a few more stragglers.

Avg pace: 9:52, 39:27

Total: 2:52:06
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Got a slice of pork roll, a sausage link, some green scrambled eggs, an orange, and a banana at the post race feast.

Overall, I was really glad I did this race and really glad I know people who will push me to do what's

Later that evening at the Color Run...

good for me. It was really good to get a practice race day before Eagleman. Cleaned, showered, and walked Sophie when I got home. Ate a lot of cookie dough. Horrible post race fuel. Napped for 10 minutes before heading out to do the color run. Legs were TIRED.

Tri-mantra

I saw this for the first time today. It summarizes the tri community perfectly in my opinion and is why so many (including me) are drawn to the sport...

"Tri-mantra" By Oliver Blanchard

In my world
the water is cold
the wind is hard
and the road never ends.

In my world
there are no losers.
Only competitors
still on their way
and spectators
waiting to be inspired.

In my world
victory is not weighed in gold
but in determination and courage.

In my world
there are no boundaries
no limits
there is no end.
Every day is the last day of my life...
and the first.

In my world
the word "can't" does not exist
and nothing is impossible.